Stay-at-home Superhero

Everyday I wake up ready to begin my day as Supermom. I will not lose my temper. I'll have patience in spades. I'll manage my time, clean the house, cook an amazing supper and play with my girls. I'll dance with them and sing and bathtime, bedtime, potty training will all go smoothly. I will have it all together. Piece of cake. Yet inevitably, every night I go to bed with a fresh set of good intentions for tomorrow.

It's like with the chocolate. Yeah yeah, I ate chocolate yesterday too. Now that there aren't any delicious Hershey's triple chunk brownies lying around I think my chances of success have increased exponentially. But the point is...I'm not really sure what the point is. I try. I fail. If at first you don't succeed...

Colson is sick as a dog, poor girl. Finley's already on the upswing of this flusomethingorother. But all Colson wants to do is rest and sleep. Sure sign she's not feeling well. The girl never wants to sleep. Sometimes I wonder when the panic sets out. Ever? Lets up is what I hear, but never really goes away. See, my dad once called out Scotland Yard because I missed an orthodontist appointment and woke up at 11 in the morning in college. Hung over? Not quite...almost. I remember driving Colson home from the hospital. Sheer panic. Horror. I was unaware that one could use rolled up towels to make a carseat lay back properly and her head was flopping all over and I was in hysterics. I hadn't actually gotten over it by the next two weeks when we needed a trip to the grocery store and insisted on walking. Like...2 miles? I don't know. It certainly felt like 2 miles to my first time ever out of shape post pregnant self. So I made the phone call today to my Mama, asking if she thought my tired baby was okay. She did. :) Of course.

For any parents reading tho, I know one parent will probably never agree with everything one pediatrician says, or website or other parent. But I've really come to respect Dr. Sears. I came across his stuff reading about vaccinations. The Vaccine Book, with accompanying website. But since reading the book I've frequented askdrsears.com for reliably straightforward parenting advice. I appreciate the honest, fact based, no scare tactics approach and the respect for informed parents whose first concern is their children's well-being.

...try, try again.